5 Years & Counting

This past weekend (officially Monday, 3/23) I celebrated my 5-Year NYC Anniversary!

An excerpt from my latest NYC scrapbook, "DWM in NYC: Years 4 & 5":

What’s Next? / Why NYC?

Why do people move here? Some to escape, some to hide, some to blossom, some to dream, some to compete, some to succeed, and many to find love. My two main objectives were to escape from my conservative Southern roots and blossom as much as humanly possible. In the words of Brian Kinney, I moved here to become the best homosexual I can be. And by pursuing my dreams in this competitive landscape I feel as though I have in some ways succeeded.

Why do people stay? We stay because to not “succeed”, for the moment, is merely to lose the battle; to leave is to lose the war. And although I don’t believe the man of my dreams resides on this island, or even in this city of nearly 10 million (1 million of which are likely homosexual), I believe that he may some day in the future live here or be passing through and cross my path. And that’s something to look forward to.

Why do I want to be here right now? Because I don’t want to be there (Mobile) or anywhere else; because the air here is dense with both smothering smog and unrivaled electricity; because the people, no matter how fucked up they are, make me smile on a daily basis; because I can still not see myself living in another American city; because I’m not ready to leave the states, and I’m afraid that my next geographical move will have to involve crossing an ocean. In a way, I am hiding from some things that lie outside of this city, but I’ve found a home in NYC. And to hide in my own home is a privilege I believe I have earned.

Gotta Love The Leak

The old Kelly Clarkson is back, and the new album (All I Ever Wanted) is everything a hardcore KC fan could want or ask for.

Step 1:

Listen to my current favorite song on the album (Already Gone):



Step 2:

Go to VH1 to hear the whole thing before it's release on 3/10:

The Leak

New addictions like this are ones we can be proud of.

Sigh.

Lyrics to Already Gone below:

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that its wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone